it takes two weeks
it is almost the end of july, somehow i am still unemployed, i am not disheartened though—life is a battle some days but i am grateful still. some days i miss college, like how i used to just have fun and learn things just for my passion and curiosity and now i literally have 0 friends of my own and my only friend is a boyyyy (cries in monica) (boyfriend). i miss girlhood, when we fight i literally get so hurt and my childhood trauma that no one loves me is triggered and i just want to d*e. elder kids are respected but younger kids are loved. life gets difficult as we grow up, and our 20s are the time to prepare physically, mentally and spiritually for the next roller coaster.
anyways, i watched this video which says—it takes two weeks, it was by a maths professor i guess, so i am trying to think like that i will give my all in the next two weeks and hope for the best. the thing is that this is the last buildspace week and i have so much to do, i want to do a proper launch in the next 5 days. even though i am with people, i do not feel too connected, scared to be me.
i know that my life will get better people wise, and in other aspects. also i want you all to leave with this thought—'you can only cook what's in your fridge', but for your thoughts, expose yourself to more ideas.